Friday, December 30, 2011

it's time!

dear baby eric,

long story short: it's time!  my water broke at 11 pm last night. your dad and i got to the hospital only to learn that i was just 1 cm dilated. we've been here almost 6 hours now.

more updates to come.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011


dear baby eric,

firmly into our 37th week. cramping regularly at night, irregular contractions, groin and leg pain, back pain -- you name it, i think i'm experiencing it. and it looks like my baby milk jugs are in proper working order, too. i just freaked myself out by squirting colostrum out my boobs.

...and here's a photo of my belly compared to your father's. would you believe he's sticking his gut out as far as possible?


any day now, baby!

Wednesday, December 7, 2011


dear baby eric,

we're 36 weeks along now. had a bit of a scare last night when i thought my water might've broken while i was dealing with an upset stomach. i've been experiencing contractions sporadically since saturday evening when i found myself in the hospital with bad cramps and an awful headache. i thought maybe those were symptoms of high blood pressure, but tests showed that my numbers were very normal -- the lowest they've been in months. however, my heart rate sky rocketed and yours did too, so i was kept at the hospital for a few hours for observation and so that my rates could normalize. thankfully they did.

but all these things make me think that you may make your debut before new year's.

we'll see!

34 weeks!

my belly's starting to look a bit lower indicating that you're dropping.

35 weeks!

36 weeks!

you're getting quite cramped in there...

Saturday, November 19, 2011


dear baby eric,

so much has happened since the last time i wrote to you. your grandma karen, aunt holly, and grandma tami hosted a baby shower for me and your father.  your papaw ray was able to attend, all the way from hawaii! you received all sorts of gifts, from diapers to toys to clothes. we're so thankful for the generosity of our friends and family, and the fact that you're already so supported and loved.

one of the most meaningful gifts we received was from mrs. kvam, the mother of our friend eric, for whom you're named. not only did she gift us with a great graco swing/bouncer (a gadget i'm sure you'll adore), but she also knitted a blanket for you from the softest yarn. i know she put a lot of love into creating the blanket, and that love will surround you every time we bundle you in it.

actually, you received a few handmade blankets -- not only the knitted afghan from mrs. kvam, but a quilt from my aunt sherry (though she says it's actually for ME, and i can CHOOSE to share it with you if i want), and a knotted fleece blanket from your aunt britney.

a couple days after the shower, your papaw ray and i met up with your tutu karen in las vegas. i enjoyed spending time with my parents, whom i miss terribly since they live across the ocean in hawaii and we're here in northern nevada. your tutu karen will come up here for a visit in early january. hopefully you'll already be here by then, and she can help me adjust to the rigors of mommyhood.

at the doctor's yesterday, we learned that you're still growing on track and have a nice, steady heartbeat at 140 BPM. our sonogram a week ago showed that you're already in position, head down. i think you're experiencing a last minute in-utero growth spirt, however, because i'm cramping a lot. the doctor says that my ligaments are stretching to accommodate your size. you hurt! there was some concern that all my cramping was an indication that i might be going into premature labor, but the doc checked everything out and things seem to be okay. we've still got a couple weeks to go before you're considered full-term, so i definitely don't want to experience any labor pains yet. but if after 36 weeks you feel like making an appearance, i'm okay with that. because honestly i'm getting tired of being pregnant, and i'd much rather be your mommy with you OUTSIDE my body, rather than tucked up in it.

we'll be 34 weeks on monday, which is the day after tomorrow. slowly but surely, baby!

Wednesday, November 9, 2011


dear son in my womb,

your stretching and kicking and crazy belly acrobatics make me think that you're practicing for a future career as a pilates instructor. and really, if that's what your heart desires, then i'm all for it. but i don't think your father will be as thrilled. i'm not even sure he knows what pilates is. better tone it down, son.

in other news, your father thinks i'm weird because i made the following video. it's our first dance, you and me. i was introducing you to good music -- elvis, johnny cash -- tunes you won't listen to very much if you continue on this pilates path in life. just kidding.

Sunday, November 6, 2011


dear baby eric,

it's been a while. lots has happened in the last couple of weeks. i'm well into our third trimester, i've been told by my doctor to rest more because my blood pressure is pre-hypertensive, i have random cramps, and i've had a few contractions.

needless to say, you're on your way in the next few weeks. tomorrow we'll officially be 32 weeks along, which means that we only have 8 more weeks until your due date. your father and i are thinking about all sorts of scarily important things to prepare for your arrival, like creating a birth plan. i desperately need to look into birthing classes as well. after feeling just a few mild contractions last week, i think i could use some education about coping techniques in case the pain of labor becomes too much. ideally, i'd love to give birth to you without being given too much medicine. don't want your entrance into the world to be marred by drugs, you know?

my tummy seems to have grown by leaps and bounds these past couple of weeks. i'm much more sensitive to your movement. i feel you much higher up in my ribs, but also waaaay down low in my pelvis as well. you like to dance on my bladder, and it's sore.

sometimes, i can feel your little knee or elbow poking out my side. your joints feel knobby under my skin.

sometimes, when i poke and prod at my belly, you'll kick in response.

30 weeks


our halloween costume, which we wore on nevada day, but not on halloween...

31 weeks

31 weeks

Tuesday, October 18, 2011


dear baby eric,

you're kicking a lot tonight.

on my right side.

it feels reeeeeally funny.