dear baby,
got sick today for the first time in a couple weeks. puked with such ferocity; it reminded me of 'the exorcist.'
today is not a happy pregnant day.
19 weeks.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Friday, August 5, 2011
019
dear baby,
so dr. barulich was a bit of a buzz kill yesterday at our appointment. he decided that 18 weeks gestation is too early to do the sonogram to take a peek at your private bits. we scheduled another appointment at the end of this month, so hopefully (fingers crossed!) we'll know to shop for pink or blue before september is upon us.
your dad fished a stethoscope out of the storage shed for me this morning, and i've been using it all day to listen to you swim around my belly. i was hoping to hear your heart beat -- your pulse was SO LOUD and STRONG through the doppler machine at the doctor's office yesterday -- but no luck yet. but i do hear faint little gurgles and hiccup noises when i listen to my lower belly. and these noises are quite different from what i hear when i place the apparatus on my upper gut, so i'm guessing i really am listening to YOU and not my digestive system squishing about.
week 18 photos:
i cut four/five inches off the length of my hair the other day and it feels SO great. you've grown a lot recently, and my belly's big enough to cause me a lot of discomfort at night. i toss and turn and flip from side to side all night long. when my hair was longer, it would get caught underneath my body and pull painfully at my scalp. now that it's shorter, i'm much more comfortable. it's not the most stylish look, but i'll be honest, baby, you don't have the most stylish mama. i spend most of my time in pajamas and sweats now that my pre-pregnancy clothes don't fit over my belly. i can't remember the last time i wore makeup. but i promise i'll attempt to retain a little bit of fashion and style once you're born, and especially once you're old enough to be embarrassed by your parents. we wont go out to dinner with me wearing a t-shirt with a large hole in the arm pit (remind me to someday tell you that story about your grandfather...) lol.
so dr. barulich was a bit of a buzz kill yesterday at our appointment. he decided that 18 weeks gestation is too early to do the sonogram to take a peek at your private bits. we scheduled another appointment at the end of this month, so hopefully (fingers crossed!) we'll know to shop for pink or blue before september is upon us.
your dad fished a stethoscope out of the storage shed for me this morning, and i've been using it all day to listen to you swim around my belly. i was hoping to hear your heart beat -- your pulse was SO LOUD and STRONG through the doppler machine at the doctor's office yesterday -- but no luck yet. but i do hear faint little gurgles and hiccup noises when i listen to my lower belly. and these noises are quite different from what i hear when i place the apparatus on my upper gut, so i'm guessing i really am listening to YOU and not my digestive system squishing about.
week 18 photos:
i cut four/five inches off the length of my hair the other day and it feels SO great. you've grown a lot recently, and my belly's big enough to cause me a lot of discomfort at night. i toss and turn and flip from side to side all night long. when my hair was longer, it would get caught underneath my body and pull painfully at my scalp. now that it's shorter, i'm much more comfortable. it's not the most stylish look, but i'll be honest, baby, you don't have the most stylish mama. i spend most of my time in pajamas and sweats now that my pre-pregnancy clothes don't fit over my belly. i can't remember the last time i wore makeup. but i promise i'll attempt to retain a little bit of fashion and style once you're born, and especially once you're old enough to be embarrassed by your parents. we wont go out to dinner with me wearing a t-shirt with a large hole in the arm pit (remind me to someday tell you that story about your grandfather...) lol.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
018
dearest baby,
tomorrow we find out if you're a boy or a girl! knowing your gender will make things all the more realistic, i think.
so far this week...a lot less nausea but many more aches and pains. i crawl into bed in the mid-afternoon and loathe getting out of it. truthfully, i pretty much stay in bed for the rest of the evening. maybe that's not the healthiest thing, but my tummy feels SO heavy and aches so much. sleeping has been difficult lately as well. my hips and back feel like they're out of alignment. i can't stay in the same position for too long, and i'm limited to laying on my sides. it's been difficult to get used to those positions because i'm normally a tummy-sleeper, but you've grown big enough recently that it's quite uncomfortable to lay face-down. laying on my back is uncomfortable, too. your weight goes onto my bladder and unevenly over my hips and feels very awkward.
despite all my complaining, i love knowing you're in my belly, growing and progressing and doing whatever it is you do while you're in there. i wish i could feel you move. sometimes i think i do, but those feelings aren't consistent. i look forward to the day i feel your first solid kick. maybe when that actually happens, though, i'll eat those words.
i love you, baby.
tomorrow we find out if you're a boy or a girl! knowing your gender will make things all the more realistic, i think.
so far this week...a lot less nausea but many more aches and pains. i crawl into bed in the mid-afternoon and loathe getting out of it. truthfully, i pretty much stay in bed for the rest of the evening. maybe that's not the healthiest thing, but my tummy feels SO heavy and aches so much. sleeping has been difficult lately as well. my hips and back feel like they're out of alignment. i can't stay in the same position for too long, and i'm limited to laying on my sides. it's been difficult to get used to those positions because i'm normally a tummy-sleeper, but you've grown big enough recently that it's quite uncomfortable to lay face-down. laying on my back is uncomfortable, too. your weight goes onto my bladder and unevenly over my hips and feels very awkward.
despite all my complaining, i love knowing you're in my belly, growing and progressing and doing whatever it is you do while you're in there. i wish i could feel you move. sometimes i think i do, but those feelings aren't consistent. i look forward to the day i feel your first solid kick. maybe when that actually happens, though, i'll eat those words.
i love you, baby.
Monday, July 25, 2011
017
dear baby,
ready for photos?
17 weeks and still cooking. haven't had morning sickness in about a week -- thank you very much -- but i can expect some craaaazy heartburn and indigestion about an hour after i eat anything. no more bloody noses either, which i appreciate. supposedly the second trimester of pregnancy is when you have more energy, but i still feel exhausted and ready for a nap ALL. THE. TIME. i haven't felt you move yet, but any time i'm laying still i concentrate on the feelings in my belly and hope that i'll feel little flutteries soon. nonetheless, i know you're still growing and developing because i get some awful ligament pains in the bottom of my belly at the end of the day, and that wouldn't happen unless you were getting bigger. 23 more weeks (give or take!) until i get to meet you. xo.
ready for photos?
17 weeks and still cooking. haven't had morning sickness in about a week -- thank you very much -- but i can expect some craaaazy heartburn and indigestion about an hour after i eat anything. no more bloody noses either, which i appreciate. supposedly the second trimester of pregnancy is when you have more energy, but i still feel exhausted and ready for a nap ALL. THE. TIME. i haven't felt you move yet, but any time i'm laying still i concentrate on the feelings in my belly and hope that i'll feel little flutteries soon. nonetheless, i know you're still growing and developing because i get some awful ligament pains in the bottom of my belly at the end of the day, and that wouldn't happen unless you were getting bigger. 23 more weeks (give or take!) until i get to meet you. xo.
Friday, July 15, 2011
016
dear baby,
i figured it's time i post tummy pictures, since my mid-section seems to be increasing in size...
15 weeks along.
25 more to go!
i figured it's time i post tummy pictures, since my mid-section seems to be increasing in size...
15 weeks along.
25 more to go!
Saturday, July 9, 2011
015
dear baby,
tomorrow i'll be 15 weeks. we heard your heartbeat a couple days ago, a healthy 160 bpm.
had to make a trip to the emergency room to get hydrated via IV. the summer heat has been so intense, and combined with the nausea you cause me, i got caught in a horrid cycle of dehydration and vomiting and nausea. the IV's made all the difference, as did a prescription of anti-nausea medication, and now i'm feeling much better.
next month, we learn if you're a boy or a girl, though a bpm of 160 supposedly indicates that we should start purchasing things in pink. we'll see!
tomorrow i'll be 15 weeks. we heard your heartbeat a couple days ago, a healthy 160 bpm.
had to make a trip to the emergency room to get hydrated via IV. the summer heat has been so intense, and combined with the nausea you cause me, i got caught in a horrid cycle of dehydration and vomiting and nausea. the IV's made all the difference, as did a prescription of anti-nausea medication, and now i'm feeling much better.
next month, we learn if you're a boy or a girl, though a bpm of 160 supposedly indicates that we should start purchasing things in pink. we'll see!
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
014
dear baby,
i feel like a disgrace to pregnant women. pregnancy is supposed to be this joyous and happy occasion. pregnant women are supposed to be glowing and blissful and full of life -- literally and figuratively.
but i don't feel like any of those things. i'm tired, worn out, sick, and stressed. if i'm glowing, it's probably an odd hue of pasty or pale that simply looks luminescent in the fluorescent light under which i stand at work. i'm constantly hungry, and that makes me irritable and grouchy. i wake up in the middle of the night with painful indigestion or hunger pangs.
none of these things make me a happy, joyous, blissful person. i'm excited you're on the way; i look forward to meeting you. but i'm also scared about the aftermath. i worry about what it will take to get us to that point. do we have enough money? do i have enough energy?
the one thing i do not doubt is the love, baby. we have enough love.
today, a co-worker told me that i'm starting to show a little bit. i told her that she's probably confusing that with fat, since i eat so much. i look forward to the day i can feel you inside of me. it will make this whole experience much more real.
one day at a time, baby.
i feel like a disgrace to pregnant women. pregnancy is supposed to be this joyous and happy occasion. pregnant women are supposed to be glowing and blissful and full of life -- literally and figuratively.
but i don't feel like any of those things. i'm tired, worn out, sick, and stressed. if i'm glowing, it's probably an odd hue of pasty or pale that simply looks luminescent in the fluorescent light under which i stand at work. i'm constantly hungry, and that makes me irritable and grouchy. i wake up in the middle of the night with painful indigestion or hunger pangs.
none of these things make me a happy, joyous, blissful person. i'm excited you're on the way; i look forward to meeting you. but i'm also scared about the aftermath. i worry about what it will take to get us to that point. do we have enough money? do i have enough energy?
the one thing i do not doubt is the love, baby. we have enough love.
today, a co-worker told me that i'm starting to show a little bit. i told her that she's probably confusing that with fat, since i eat so much. i look forward to the day i can feel you inside of me. it will make this whole experience much more real.
one day at a time, baby.
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